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Tuesday, August 18, 2009

♥ Men

I wish I could get Charles out of my head, but it is pretty hard to do when my friends are still friends with him. Jackie talks to him and hangs out with him, and I ask her not to talk about him anymore, so I can get over him and what does she do today? Tells me how she is picking him up from the airport on Saturday. Right before an exam! Lucky for me the exam was cake, but it shook me all up. I hate it that I can't get him out of my head, and that he won't even talk to me. I know doc said I would be okay and not care if he did or not, but I do care.

On a more positive note, Jacob text me yesterday to let me know he is picking up the kids on Friday. I text him back to let him know the kids are going to be very excited, but he never wrote me back. Andrew is doing better now. I reminded Andrew that just because his and Lincoln's birthday parties are going to be different, it does not mean he is loved more. I also reminded Andrew that 1 year old birthday parties are more for the family of the 1 year old, since they don't know what is going on yet. He smiled at that, so that is good. I also reminded him of the birthday party he had at Sparkles, where he was able to invite and play with all his friends.

I think Andrew is going to be okay. He is such an amazing and loving boy. He really enjoyed karate last night... learning new stances, punches, kicks, and learning about the values that go along with it all. This should better build his self-confidence. First day: he yelled so quietly last night as though he were unsure of himself. Can't wait to watch him transform over time!

Victoria also had a great time last night. She was loud and confident and had a great time in the youngest class. They had a lot of fun, and we got to play dodgeball with them. When we tagged the kids, they had to do pushups before they could play again. :) I am hoping karate helps her with better focus and concentration.

As for me, I'll be okay. Thinking about seriously talking to Mom and Dad about having Pop Pop live with the kids and I. I really think he would enjoy it, and it would also be nice to have someone to talk to when I come home. It can be really lonely single parenting. I can talk to the kids, but not about everything. And over the last four years, my friends have changed dramatically as I have settled down quite a bit. Jackie still remains, but all the partiers from when I didn't have the kids with me are now acquaintences I pass in the hallways. Basically, I think it would be a symbiotic relationship... which is necessary.

♥ Live life with love.
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♥ My Loves ;

    Andrew
    Victoria


♥ Best Friend;

  • Melissa
  • Mom
  • Dad
  • Cherice
  • Jackie
  • Alicia

♥ Precious Moments

  • The birth of my children
  • My sister's wedding day
  • Cuddle time
  • Singing to Victoria
  • Listening to Andrew
  • Smiling children
  • Family vacations

♥ Thankful for:

  • this wonderful day
  • My children
  • Family
  • Friends
  • Chiropractic

♥ Past rawr-ing